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[28 Jun 2003|07:16pm] |
how long has it been?
a little too long.
i miss my axpiratexriot journal.
i wishi never deleted it. i need a livejournal code, so i can make another journal.
i haven't written in this in a really long time, but i don't want to delete it. i have too many memories.
<3<3<3<3
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[20 Apr 2003|01:46am] |
oooh another update... just to say
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| for all of you that still have me on their friends list... |
[27 Mar 2003|02:25am] |
take this one off and add myplasticweapon
goddamn..
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[18 Nov 2002|12:01pm] |
i have a new livejournal. please add me, because this one will soon be gone.
-------------> my new journal <-------------
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| a wholesome fish that smiles back, until you bite their heads off. the snack that smiles back goldfish.. ! |
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there is this really n eat gameshow called "oblivious" and it's where this guy goes around asking random people questions who don't know they're being video taped and every question they get right, they win money.
but it's neat because they don't even know until he asks them 5 questions. he poses as associates at stores and stuff, and he starts up a conversation with people and then he'll ask a question about something he's talking about, but he makes it a fact question.
it's neat. and when he's done, he'll say... "you've just been caught on oblivious... the game show you didn't even know you're on."
oh man, i watch too much tv.
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| josh mason speaks words of wisdom. |
[17 Nov 2002|02:25am] |
i swear this kid always has something good to say... although we never talk, we used to a lot... and he always had something wise to say about everything..
Re(7): BROKEN HEARTS
IP: 68.51.191.31
Posted on November 14, 2002 at 12:32:03 AM by josh mason
how about people spend time learning from it and growing from it and from the problems that they have in their relationships instead of ganging together and complaining about how you dont understand why you get your heart ripped out.i speak from experience and it gets you nowhere. those kinds of things happen,its life, and its bound to happen. thats what that whole aspect of life is about. you go through these things to find out what it is you want and feel comfortable with. dating weeding out the things that you arent ready for or is not the thing for you. but its up to you to decide how much you can grow from that. not everyone is comfortable with other peoples decisions about relationships, but its a fact of life, and its their life, and they are more in control of their life than you are. try not to get mad and try to learn. spending time putting down the opposite sex because you had a problem with a few them out of the billions that exist on this planet is ridiculous. girls dont suck. girls are very much rad. guys too. hooray for humans. no sex as a sect should be degraded because " your friend stole your boy/girlfriend" or "you lied to me" i learned this the hard way. education is a key.
and we move on....
Re(9): BROKEN HEARTS
IP: 63.237.13.7
Posted on November 14, 2002 at 07:10:29 PM by josh mason
do i know you at all? do you know me? do you know what ive gone through? i dont pretend to know what youve dealt with..no matter how many times things happen to you the more you fight fire with fire the worse things get. the more you raise your voice in anger the less likely is is that you will change anything. crews are bullshit. they breed hate and anger and mistrust. isnt that what you say you fight against? you talk about friendship and compasion.. all you are doing is rallying one group of people against another group. that solves nothing.
Re(8): BROKEN HEARTS
IP: 65.33.99.97
Posted on November 14, 2002 at 04:27:05 PM by John
He knows what he's talking about.
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[16 Nov 2002|05:54pm] |
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the lack of intelligence in some people really amuses me. and the funny thing is, they think they're so right about everything. haha.. why is this making me laugh so much now?
oh man. when do people ever grow up?
anyway, i had a really good day yesterday...( since this is my "pete worship journal" like some morons like to call it... ) with pete, he came to hang out.... we went to meritt square mall with emily and den, it's not such a good mall, but it's a better atmosphere to be in a different place, and not having to worry about running into someone who would make you want to vomit. then we hung out with the lovely nicollette.... we went to dennys on US1 and a siberian husky walked up to us, and no one claimed it, so we felt bad for it, and we went in to dennys and asked them to call animal control. they said they did, and they were on their way, but i think they lied to us. because we waited with the dog for an hour. after trying to call information and trying to get numbers for animal control, or anyone who would pick up a lost dog for that matter, the guy in the hotel called, and found out no one would come and get her till 8 the next morning. so we went inside, and nicollette called her mom and her mom gave her permission to keep the dog there for a while. so i was happy... you know, because i have a heart.
nicollette left with christina and josh, who came to help get the dog, and pete and i said our goodbyes.
oh yeah, and trust me, i want to leave this shit hole more than you could ever want me to.... but at least im going somewhere.
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i just don't understand some people.
i spent all of my day today, realizing how immature people are.
4 different people in my life have proven to me that they are completely immature and they have lost all their senses. 4. 4 people that i have been close to. 4 people that i have known and loved.
4 people that i have felt completely either betrayed me, or took advantage of me, or turned on me and acted like fucking asses for their own satisfacion in seeing me hurt.
goddamn it. im not going to stand for it.
i have spend my time on 4 people today that make me want to vomit. i cried on several different occasions today because of these 4 people.
i have been very non selfish, in giving everything i can to these people and having my heart broken like this. and it pisses me off when people call me selfish. i have been before, but im not selfish. but people deserve to be happy, and that is all i have ever tried to be, because i have struggled through so many bad friendships and heartbreaks, and so many bad relationships, and being stalked 3 times... and having my life threatened. i think i have the fucking right to be a little selfish sometimes and try to be happy. and im fucking happy now, and i have people trying to ruin that. trying to ruin my fucking life because they can't deal with me being happy. why? i don't know, maybe because they're not happy... maybe for other reasons i don't know. but you would think someone who knows me as well as these 4 people did, wouldn't try me like that. they wouldn't do something like that to me knowing me. you'd think they would move on, and be ok with the fact that i am finally happy with something and someone. finally... after not being happy for so many years, after not having a good childhood to remember, after not having anything really. you'd think they'd let me be.
i've grown a lot in the past 2 years, and i have matured really fast growing up, because i was just raised that way, because my mom was a single parent, who devoted most of her time and money to my epileptic brother. so i have basically grown up doing for myself. my mom and i are very close, don't get me wrong.. and she has done a lot for me, and we're like best friends, but i have had to help her a lot, and i think that is where me maturing faster has come in..
i had my heartbroken by 4 people today. and 2 of them never intended on doing so, but they did. and im not going to be a dick and hold a grudge against any of them. i still love every one of them. because i think im 20 years old, and i think i have more intelligence and more maturity to be civil, and not talk shit, and cause a whole lot of unnecessary bullshit. i think i have more sense than that. and people can hate me up and down, and curse me to hell, and tell me they can't wait to shit on my grave, but in the long run, i hope they see that i have changed, and i am a better person, and im a good friend.
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i have pictures to post, but i am so goddamn lazy.
im so fucking tired right now. holy shit. im going to bed.
i hate you
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[11 Nov 2002|12:32am] |
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HOLY SHIT!!! EVERYONE READ THIS JOURNAL. !!!!xpimp69x
and this made me laugh sooooooo soooo hard. i love you
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| LOOK WHO I AM!! |
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this is sooo good.
"august" didn't have much, but my nickname did..
augie is a natural man
augie is part of the central florida search and rescue network
augie is a rottweiler
augie is off at the racetrack
augie is a characteristic bellow hero
augie is a man "in search of a worthwhile fate
augie is a type1
augie is praised not only for his ability to produce flawless plans but also for listening to his clients
augie is national runner
augie is
augie is "still in the process of distilling" information from some 9
augie is 18 months old and is patiently waiting for his loving forever home
augie is an unbeatable manure auger in both capacity and performance
augie is awesome' i really mean it
augie is very brave too
augie is an orange and white male domestic short hair and was born around the first of may
augie is a retired dea agent recovering from a beating received on a previous case
augie is all about being clever
augie is a static server
augie is still poring over magazines in search of vocational hints
augie is a new kind of american hero who still demands a certain kind of freedom
augie is a neutered red merle australian shepherd born 07/17/97
augie is at bat when pete reiser
augie is a swell guy
augie is the skittiest cat i have ever known
augie is probably the most
augie is one of the most powerful speakers that i have come across
augie is a favorite among the pigs because he's from the land of beer
augie is attending shows other than model car shows
augie is a regularly attending member of nblug who is currently majoring in computer science at sonoma state university and working for the sonoma county water
augie is dead
augie is an extremely good fighter with a good punch
augie is still an engaging narrator
augie is doing just fine getting used to the place and running us around the yard
augie is a partnership of agency management systems users groups
augie is a direct son the jukebox
augie is truly aimless
augie is indeed the doggie hahaha
augie is a man
augie is ranked ninth in the latest wrestling coaches association top 20 division ii poll
augie is known for challenging classes
augie is so cool
augie is really good at retrieving
augie is a cpa by trade
augie is a cooperative effort among the leaders of many of the industry's agency system user groups
augie is a persistent and tireless buzz of energy with a desire for food that is without equal
augie is seen here working on bracing for a top
augie is worth more dead than alive
augie is now a shy
augie is a self
augie is gone
augie is married to the former sharon richardson
augie is this year's target in the continuing debate about ethnic stereotypes in island comedy
augie is ever more polished and accomplished as the headliner
augie is taken on by slick private eye frank gannon
augie is 3 and is in preschool
augie is starting to get used to a lot of noise because his room is right next to the studio"
augie is the boorish and brutish patriarch of a clan boasting 21 children
augie is trying to find the sweet spots and from my conversations with him there is always a new one discovered
augie is meant to be a process by which all the players in the insurance value chain can exchange information to gain greater
augie is now a prominent civil rights journalist
augie is a proven leader who
augie is that he?s
augie is presently at home
augie is a three year old
augie is amazing
augie is the daughter of the multiple national field champion winner nafc
augie is absolutely the sweetest guy in taipei
augie is very close in the championship
augie is also giving away a free copy of sv for those who email him by next friday
augie is a fine actor and talent
augie is our own home grown talent
augie is standing across the street
augie is struggling to maintain his weakening hold on his working class neighborhood
augie is the artistic
augie is a great alert dog [there was a cartoon long time ago, called "augie doggie"]
augie is a funny guy
augie is a very light frosted
augie is raymond's best friend and a permanent fixture in the ortiz household
augie is typically described as running numbers and protection rackets
augie is the one dog in the collection
augie is often a very weak link
augie is a veteran of community theater in the greater cleveland area
augie is a small
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TO EMILY <3
i wanted to hang out with you tonight. we will hang out tomorrow. my cousin and i never get a chance to see each other, so she called me today and whe hung out in the morning, but i didn't think it would be all day, but she would have been really upset if i made her leave. im sorry. i want to hang out tomorrow before i work though. <3
( this one is so good. haha [jen is spreading her butt] is the best!! haha )</lj-cut text=" this one is so good. haha. "jen is spreading her butt" is the best!! haha ">
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[09 Nov 2002|12:04pm] |
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i wish i didn't have to work today, so i could see telia and ashley again. i had fun hanging out last night, even though they were so freaking tired. we tried calling emily a few times, but no one answered her phone, and we figured she would see that we called and call us back, but she never did. but apparently she never got that we called. i don't know what happened. it was weird. i wish she would have gotten it though.
the only thing we did though, was eat at waffle house. and then after that we didn't know what to do, so we stood in the waffle house parking lot for like 3 hours, and hung out and talked. and watched all the bikers ride by, because it was bike night at the county line. haha
i was envious. i want a bike so bad. i want to ride sooo bad. everytime i see a bike, i get so jealous. i want one so much. i want to wear hot leather, and rip up the road on my sweeeet aaaasssssssss harley.. OOOWWW
that's my goal in life.
anyway, i got spiderman. twice. ha.. my moms boyfriend wanted me to get him one from walmart. so he gave me money for it. and then ash and i went to eckards and i got a copy there. for 0. and that is my copy to keep for myself. then when i got one from walmart, i got the bonus pack. YESSS!!! i was so excited.
it had a comic book in there, and extra dvd with the creators and it's supposed to tell you how they created all that, and about all the marvel comic heros and what not, and then i got a little poster thing, it's like a painting of spiderman. it's sweeeet and then.. i got a frame from an actual film strip of the movie. and it's one of my favorite parts in the movie. it's the part where spiderman, and the green goblin were in the burning building, and the green goblin is attacking him with his chinese star things, and spiderman is doing all these matrix jumps and twists to avoid him. WORRD i got that frame.
man for the most part of it.... i had an exciting day.
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oh what's this?? new user pics?? oooh.... my 65 dollar photo editing software is working. !!!! WOOORRRRDDD!!
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i took my lip stud thing out. it was dumb that i got it knowing i would have to take it out, but it was a good thing that i did get it when i did... because when i took it out, and saw the hole.. i was disgusted.. luckily since i only had it for 2 days, it will heal. but had i gotten it when i didn't have to take it out, i would have left it in, for a long long time, and any time that i had to take it out, i would have this atrocious hole under my lip. and i don't want that.
im glad i took it out.. i liked it, it was cute, but i like having a nice lip too... not a lip with a hole in it.
im going out to eat with emily, she should be here any minute..
<3
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FAIRY TALE  nce upon a time there has a young BRUTAL MOSH KID named PETER. He was MILICIOUSLY BAKING in the YELLOW forest when he met FATEST ANTONIO, a run-away DIRTY JOCK-STRAP CLEANER from the UGLIEST Queen ASHLEY.
PETER could see that FATEST ANTONIO was hungry so he reached into his GRAPE JAR and give him his HEINOUS GUACAMOOOOLLLLEEEEYYY. FATEST ANTONIO was thankful for PETER's GUACAMOOOOLLLLEEEEYYY, so he told PETER a very GROSS story about Queen ASHLEY's daughter EMILY. How her mother, the UGLIEST Queen ASHLEY, kept her locked away in a STONE protected by a gigantic RAT, because EMILY was so AMAZING. PETER MOSHED. He vowed to FATEST ANTONIO the DIRTY JOCK-STRAP CLEANER that he would save the AMAZING EMILY. He would CRUSHED the RAT, and take EMILY far away from her eveil mother, the UGLIEST Queen ASHLEY, and SHAKING her. Then, all of the sudden, there was a PERFECT HAIL and FATEST ANTONIO the DIRTY JOCK-STRAP CLEANER began to laugh. With a puff of smoke he turned into the gigantic RAT from his story. UGLIEST Queen ASHLEY EATEN out from behind a MOP and struck PETER dead. In the far off STONE you could hear a LOUD SNORING. THE END. Make your own Fairy Tale at fuali.com
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[03 Nov 2002|09:41pm] |
i don't want to go back to melbourne. i hate it so much. ashley came to hang out last night. i saw jackass.. it was good. i got my lip peirced today, kind of a dumb thing, because i know my work won't let me have it. im wearing a clear stud though, but it is noticable, hopefully they'll let me have it, but i doubt it. so it was kind of really dumb that i got it done. but i like it a lot.
livejournal is getting retarded.. a lot of unecessary bullshit. half the time no one knows what im talking about, and when they read my journal it gets misunderstood.
whatever... i don't have real friends anyway, except for like 4 people.
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[02 Nov 2002|02:41am] |
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why people hate me for no reason... explain... i have not done anything to anyone. why people take me off their friends list, who i have actually met and hung out with, and then leaves my boyfriend on their friends list who you've never met and never talked to... is a mystery to me... fuck you anyway. i have never done anything to you, and tim, talks shit about me all the time... what the fuck. i think im a nice person, except the fact that i say i hate everyone all the time, but it's not even fucking true. the only reason i say that is because people walk all over me, and treat me like shit, and "friends" talk shit behind my back... i've been hurt a few times, so i think it gives me a right to be defensive, and when i say i hate everyone, it's probably because i want people to be intimidated by me because i don't want to be involved with people who are going to use me, and fucking talk shit about me, and hurt my feelings. why can't people get a life and fucking grow up. people are so brutal and carefree of other peoples feelings. why can't people be more considerate of how others feel? why do people have to cause pointless bullshit.. why do people have to start fights when the know there will be nothing resolved but a lot more trouble? why? because everyone is fucking immature and stupid.
this completely boggles my mind. i wish i knew more real people.. i wish that half the people that i have met and pretended to care about me weren't fake as hell and full of bullshit and stupid rumors and lies.
i hear more lies about me everyday that i am in melbourne and it's the most disgusting fucking crap i have ever heard in my life. melbourne is bullshit, the kids in melbourne are bullshit... kids like tim, and others who antagonize me online, or in person, are bullshit. why do people do it? because they have nothing better to do with their fucking disgusting lives.. for someone who used to tell me they loved me and cared about me to turn around, and try to turn everyone else around on me, it's bullshit. it's unfair. jesus christ ... i didn't ruin your life, so please move on.
you antagonizing me all the time is not moving on. it's trying to get a rise out of someone who obviously stopped caring a long time ago. fucking grow up.
and when people do this shit to me, it's nice to know i have great friends who will back me up, and stand up for me... even if these kids are your best friends.. i think i have known you longer.. i hope you know who i am talking about... you can stay friends with people and still ask them to back the fuck off of another one of your friends like me... or maybe you're not my friend.
it really upsets me, i don't understand it.
reading other peoples journals, and stupid fights a drama on their comments page.. it's ridiculous. it makes me sick. you think some kids are smart, because they seem so when you talk to them, and share so much with them... but then they turn around and act like asses all the time, and show who they really are. they're so smart that all they have is their immaturity and thoughlesness. sometimes peoples intelligence takes over their commen sense.. this we have morons who fuck with peoples lives for nothing... to get a good laugh.
i just wish that people didn't hate me for no reasons... or for reasons that aren't plausible.
like i feel like it's not even worth being nice to people, because im just going to get treated like shit.
sorry that i mentioned names.
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it's halloween
</b>halloween is amazing.
yeah, people always ask me if im wearng a wig... it's usually ghetto ass people who have fake hair themselves...... but.... it pisses me off... im going to start telling people that i have cancer, and i go through chemo therapy, and i have to wear a wig.. and i hope they feel like shit.
my hair grows out of my head... not out of a horses ass. ok fuckers
it doesn't look fake, people tell me that is just looks too perfect to be real... hahahaha yeah, try to cover up your dumb questions. asssssses.
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